been feelin like there’s some stuff not flowing through the body and mind most optimally. don’t know what.... 
had a really nice meditation. tried to just be still, focusing on the polarity of inhales and exhales as being and non-being. life and death. am feeling incredibly grateful to get to experience the universe. as i breathed i envisioned a big tree and started to feel energy flowing in my arms and hands. feeling all the teeny tiny interactions between particles that maintain the illusion of my physicality. feeling all the little life force vehicles running through my skin. i felt like i was the tree, feeling the little hum as i soaked up the nutrients of the earth and swayed in the breeze. the cycle of life rushing through me so lovingly and enthusiastically. that is all you need! and all you have!