in today’s meditation i found that the main thing my spoke would get stuck on were thoughts ((whether in the past or hallucinatory)) of being desirable and likeable by my fellow earth dwellers. i read a while ago that all the neural processes to make thoughts are constantly going off. there’s an infinitude of potential thoughts to focus your attention on at any one time. but your attention gets attached to whatever is most “interesting” to you. it’s not random, it’s whatever thought has the most gravity or pull. so the thoughts that come up in those moments of stillness and reflection canl teach A LOT about what we are still working towards or what we are holding on to at present. i’ve started to deepen my realization of the fact that the love between two people is a bite-sized and palatable form of the love that echoes through every little tiny fibre of every single moment. the balance of opposites, the yin and yang is and electrified and pure prophecy of the marriage between two people. the object of love is not what is important. love is just what happens when you are in a state of love. love can and should be practiced in any environment and towards any subject.