pour your heart into these pages. this is an extension of your consciousness. your mind, your spirit. everything is welcome here. this should be a tangible, comprehensible, guide to your heart and mind. this is a map for you! a map through this timeline. really document and explore your feelings and hopes. poems, doodles, meditational findings, mantras, practices, lessons, revelations. just EVERYTHING!!! it is a tool but it is also an installation of self.
i’m feeling very frustrated all of a sudden. i’m feeling disappointed. i’m feeling upset with myself for not feeling as fulfilled and aligned as i once did. most of those feelings come from feeling ugly and undesirable. which is very sad. i really do not want losing weight to play any part in my spiritual journey and growth. i’m really over it always being in the back of my mind and impeding upon my presence. but it’s good to be frustrated. it’s good for me to recognise that there’s other things that should be claiming my mind and energy. i just want myself back. and i want my unshakeable zest and lust for existence back in my heart and eyes. i want to feel it in every fibre of my being, rather than be consumed by how much i’m eating or moving. i’m going to just breathe now and say a prayer.