i’m feeling good today, really excited for the day when my first thought in the morning is not about my body. but i’m doing better in that regard – making the conscious choice not to obsess over and identify with physical appearance and instead focusing attention on how i feel and how i interact with the world. i’ve been doing alot of sitting and thinking the past few days and the thing i keep coming back to is that i need to believe that i deserve this existence and that i deserve all the love, miracles and blessings that come to me. i deserve to feel and i deserve to be brave. i will only be zong once, and she deserves the greatest zongxperience fathomable.