i just went for a ciggy at the waterfront and realized that i’m beginning to see glimpses of the way i used to see life + myself. it’s kind of painful thought because it highlights how far i am from being where i want to be and from the mindset i used to be in. but!! i’m learning not to shy away from those feelings because they’re helping me to figure out what steps i have to take to get better.
i just have to keep going and shake some existentialism so i can stop feeling so phony simply for trying to make my life into something i want to live.