i just realized…. one of my goals for the rest of the year was to do something that really scared me! and i’ve done it!!! not what i thought it would look like really but gaining weight and falling back into old patterns was definitely my biggest fear for a long time there. but i did, and it’s not at all as terrifying and life-altering as it ever seemed. i’m still me. everyone i love still loves me, i still have everything i could ever need or want. and most importantly, i’m still learning. it seems as though the prospect of losing or gaining weight never needed to maintain the insanely powerful hold it had over me. like anything else, weight is lost and gained. and it seems to have no real effect on anything.
i am devoted to nurturing myself through this little rough spot and climbing on through to the other side.